Seriously. I need to stop thinking with that perspective. It just creates more problems. Maybe its time to let it go. Its already passed the mark. I guess I'm just afraid of the day that things stop staying the way they are now.

It can't go any further. because that just makes things complicated. and i hate it when things become complicated. damn.

I have to walk away. I don't want to, but I have to. Its better for everyone that way. really. If i don't it'll get out of control.

I'm sorry.