I have no life and i must design...

... which is all fine and well except for 1 "small" detail: I HAVE NO AESTHETIC SENSE WHATSOEVER.

I mean, I can do graphics, publications, videos, games (and video games) and now websites. BUT its all technical. I'm half decent with photoshop, dreamweaver, indesign / freehand, premiere, after effects and maybe even maya, but creatively, i STINK.

(Oh did i mention that i'm pretty damn good with microsoft excel?)

so what advantage is there to being good technicallly if all the skills you have is what pretty much what anyone else can pick up? and when there's so many other people out there who are way better? Like this guy for example?

My only forseeable "gift" is that i pick up softwares pretty quickly (but that's just in comparison to some of my friends). it doesn't give me much of an advantage frankly.

The only reason why my skills have value is that in places where i operate, they haven't found someone who's better (and willing) to do it. Does that make me the cheap / convenient option? perhaps. can i live with that? maybe. does it stink? hell yeah.

I say again: I have no life and i must design - but if there's no ideas, what's there to design?

Crossroads

Well. you'd think that i'd write a shoutout post to everyone now that the sem is over. but frankly i'm just waiting at the moment - waiting for the day to know what happens next (READ: i'm waiting for results). When the results come around i'll know whether i'm staying or going. and while i'm pretty much fine with either outcome, the not-knowing-what-happens-next feeling is just plain annoying.

so about a week and a day from now, expect a post or 2 about what happens next...